- ♥'ing you . i need you now . je t'aime . ♥ -

FUCK MY LIFE

2010-03-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

- YOU THINK YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT? HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF YOUR WRONGS? I ALWAYS HAVE TO BE THE ONE IN THE WRONG RIGHT? IF YOU DISLIKE ME SO MUCH, LET ME GO WHERE I WANT TO GO AND JUST LET ME BE HAPPY. I WOULD BE BETTER OFF THERE ANYWAY. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW LONG I HAVEN'T BEEN HAPPY? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT TO LEAVE THIS WORLD?
- let's just put on a smile and act like nothing's wrong. i know it's hard, but that's the best i can do when there's nothing else to be happy about. but the only thing that brings joy to my life is having someone to talk to and have by my side 24/7. this may not be much, but there's nothing else we can possibly do in this world. nothing is perfect.
; i know we make mistakes, but if you make the same mistakes over an over again, i can't forgive you anymore. i can't take the blame when i have done nothing wrong. and i am not going to stand for that. i am not going to be like those who do the wrong but claim it's for the better, i am not going to turn into a person like you. you ruin people's lives, and you think it's for their own good. you have no idea how much you have hurt me over the past years. you think you are suffering the most?, you think you have the worst life?
; you may not know this, but i am sorry for everything wrong that i have done to you. i am extremely and sincerely sorry. i know i can get angry. it's not because of what you do, it's my own problems and i should not vent my anger out on you.
; everything that happens in life has a purpose. this post, has a purpose. i am trying to apologise to those i have done wrong to and confront those who have done wrong to me.

currently pissed off.

online-ing

2010-02-27T04:05:00.000-08:00

Heyy people!

nothing much happened today..
didnt go out or anything..
woke up - whole body aching.
msn-ed, facebook-ed.
&& chatted w baby e whole day! :D

that's just about it!
♥

KFC!

2010-02-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

LOL, headed out to KFC at Bedok Inter w Daniel, Jessie and Shariz aft getting chased out by Mr Jit. -.-
went thr, slack like hell, eat2, disturb jessie.
Some things Daniel and Shariz talked abt:
1. Bananas
2. How difficult it is 2 DRINK mashed potatoes
3. Being gay
4. Hot Guys
5. Cat
6. Being gay
7. Bananas

:D

that's it!

NO LOVE.

2010-02-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

Staring out into the world across the street
You hate the way your life turned out to be
He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound
Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say
Your always going to be afraid

[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here

Broken down like a mirror smashed to peices
You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile
If these walls could talk they would have so much to say
Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal but there never gonna go away

[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh no So what will you do?

Your falling, your screaming
Your stuck in the same old nightmare
He's lying, your crying
There's nothing left to salvage
Kick the door cause this is over
Get me out of here

(Kick the door)

[Chorus:]
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Oh so what will you do?
There's only lies
There's only fears
There's only pain
There is no love here
Tell me what will you do?
There's only hate
There's only tears
There's only pain
There is no love here.

nothing to post.

chinese new yeeear

2010-02-15T07:46:00.001-08:00

went to town to watch fireworks at Marina Bay from e 44th floor of a building. :D

2010-02-07T05:09:00.001-08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

family reunion !

2010-02-06T07:01:00.001-08:00

heyylowww.
just came back from an early family reunion dinner..
ate ALOT.
during dinner, my uncles, aunties, cousins took turns carrying lil sis. (:
each almost all of them had their eyes digged at. haha.
den daddy poke poke my bicep den keep poking.
den bla bla bla..
daddy sent me home.
so now doing this.
lazy type uhh..

Till here.

2010-02-05T06:34:00.000-08:00

as my tears roll down my cheek.
you still don't know how much you've hurt me.
letting this happen so easily.
watching everything fall apart.
making me feel this way.
making my family this way.
destroying my childhood.
destroying my life.

till here.

lie .

2010-02-03T06:38:00.000-08:00

Lie to me and tell me that it's gonna be alright.
Lie to me and tell me that we'll make it through the night.

I Miss You.
<3

omagad

2010-01-31T04:51:00.000-08:00

heyy ppl ..
woke up tis morn at 6.50 to go for e Run For My Lunch thing at east coast .
met jingyee outside macs .
cute guy came up 2 us n asked whr was e starting line ..
race started .
walked / ran 3km .
finished , took free ice-cream , water n blablabla .

went to macs again 2 slack .
slacked till arnd 11.38 ?
mummy fetched me , went home .
slept , did homework , laptop , eat , back here again .

ABOUT TRACK & FIELD :
okay , i admit . i love track and field waaaayyyyy more than netball . if i knew my mum was gonna gv me restrictions , i wldve applied for Temasek Sec as my first choice and joined Track . but since it's alr too late , i cant bare to leave my frens here in Bedok View . i wld DEFINITELY wanna go to Temasek . but , i jus hv no idea wat to do . Temasek ? Bedok View ? Track & Field ? Netball ?
I WANT TO BE IN TRACK AND FIELD !!!! I WANT IT SOOOOOO BADLY RIGHT NOWWW ! please , anybody with any opinions or advice , please , speak up .

Till here .

i was soo bored .

2010-01-29T22:01:00.000-08:00

ahahahha ! we were bored .
updates : sprained ankle .

eff u !

2010-01-26T05:23:00.000-08:00

u bloody useless no life thief !
i want my fcuking earpieces back u arsewhole !

went to eastpoint !

2010-01-24T01:42:00.000-08:00

hello !
i jus got back frm eastpoint !
went thr w mummy , ate lunch .
met annmay n went 2 popular c music albums .
then went of w annmay to go Burger King to do homework .
SEE ! SO GUAI !

then did homework till so stress .
went to jalan2 at arcade , but never play . -.-
wth rite . LOL .
den like got spg at eastpoint prancing arnd in super short dresses on stage .
den disiao them - PEEWEET PEEWEET !

den walk arnd summore . den guai2 go home . [:

den see this boy sit outside Burger King SOOOOO EMOO !

Soo sweet !
[:

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
My love for you.
Is always true.
You light up my life.
You make me shine.
Don't leave me alone.
Cos you are mine.
;DD

Till here .
My Baby . <3

blablabla

2010-01-23T00:31:00.001-08:00

Here are some new pics abt wat's been going on .. (:

heyy peeps !
back from e dead !
been sooo bored at home .
wanting to sleep in sch ..
things like that ..

yesterday wanted to meet annmay gan ge n 'surprise him' at bedok inter .
hide at e phone booths in between two shops .
SWAY SWAY his bus stop rite in front of us .
WAT THE FORK LA .
LOL .

Till here .
My Baby . <3

it's raining .. n boring . :]

2009-12-15T01:31:00.000-08:00

hello ..
im bored , it's raining .
im alone at home .
e door slammed shut and made me jump .
that's all . (:

mum didnt let me use com yesterday ..

2009-12-11T05:24:00.000-08:00

hello , there's something fcuking wrong w e bluetooth , so im not gonna upload anything .

byebye

SINGAPORE IDOL !

2009-12-08T05:57:00.000-08:00

heyy .. watching Singapore Idol now ..
but im too insulted by e idiotic americans tryna make themselves LOOK like teenagers , so i decided to write in now .
supporting SEZAIRI SEZALI !
SEZAIRI ALL THE WAY !!!!!!!!!!!!

that's all !
byebye !

hello hello hello !

2009-12-07T05:13:00.001-08:00

HELLO everybudayyy !!
hahah .. sorry for not posting last nite ..
lady boss nvr lemme use com .. buay song uhh !
haha ..
so yea , yesterday went to toa payoh to watch a national netball competition tingy ..
Singapore against Canada ..
but before we reached , i met Jessie to meet PeiYin and Alena on da bus !
we were listening to our own music but Alena decided to do her nails on a moving bus .
so she asked Jessie (who i MUST SAY , was freezing in the bus).
e bus stopped , so i looked out e window , n i saw a rooster chicken ting . -.-"
weird rite ?
then i looked down , then i saw e words fcuk you !
then Jessie told me to take a pic . so i did n posted it here .
haha ..
aft tt went to Raffles arnd 6pm++ to meet the LAO BAN aka , boss , boss man , boss man sir - aka , daddy .
haha .. went thr , saw my cuzinsss n uncles n aunties ..
UNCLE CHAN ! was trying to threaten me w a ladle tt was in the steamboat !
oooo . soooo scary .
aft eating , went back home had something like a movie marathon w mummy , then slept arnd 3am ..

TODAYY ..
woke up at 12.23pm .
watched tv in e living room .
ate lunch .
watched tv till 6pm .
cooked dinner 4 myself , mummy n brudder .
ate .
waited for my bro to finish showering .
showered .
tried to watch movie , but it was in thai n thr were NO ENG SUBTITLES !
WHAT IS WITH THAT ?!
so now blogging .

End Of Story . (:
Byebye . ;D

i m boreddd .

2009-12-05T07:14:00.000-08:00

heyy people ..
nothing much to talk about now ..
I DIDNT DO ANYTHING TODAII !!!!
only talked on the phone with Rach-Ellllllll !
OUH ! JINGYEE IS BACK IN SINGAPORE !
WELCOME BACK BEB !
SEE YOU SOON I HOPE ! XD

k , gotta get up before my usual 12.30pm ..
have some netball tingy at toa payoh with the rest of Bedok View's Netball team ..
so yea .. gotta get up earrrly !

toodles ! ;p

eff-ed up mood . only pics aite .

2009-12-04T06:27:00.000-08:00

sorry , no mood to post anyth tonight ..

Byebye .

getting tired ..

2009-12-02T08:04:00.000-08:00

heyy peeps !
sorry , no pics tdy .. not really 'in the moood' or something like that ..
today , woke up arnd .. 12.30pm ?
went to e living room , watched tv ..
i got hungry , so i went 2 e kitchen - fried omelete n 4 chicken burgers ..
then went 2 Alexandra Hospital for my bro to tighten his braces ..
headed to my auntie's house n drove up to JB .. had EARLY EARLY dinner .
(THE TOILETS WERE UTTERLY DISGUSTING . THERE WAS ONE THAT WAS LITERALLY OVERFLOWING W SHIT .)
then went to Giant at JB still .. shop ! shop ! shop !
121.60 ringgit ! ahahah . mostly junk foood !
came back to Sunny Singapore n home .
just in time for my SINGAPORE IDOL RESULT SHOW !!
FINALLY !!!! TT CHARLES OUT ALR !!! GOOOOO SEZAIRI !!!
HAAHAH .
so i missed my chinese drama AGAIN .
nvm .. so cooked noodles n ate blackcurrent gummies from JB , so now hving a SUGAR RUSH . wahahaha !

k , tt's all for toooooooooooodaiiiii !!
Byebye . (:

nothing much happened todaiii !

2009-12-01T07:03:00.000-08:00

a cat too comfortable ..
she doesn't seem to noe tt's SHE IS A CAT .
but she's photogenic .. heh heh ..

blogging while chatting .. so fun ..
haha .. but at home nothing much happened ..
i only went out to White Sands 6-ish ? w mummyyyy n bro ..
ate then came back home , I MISSED 3/4 OF MY CHINESE DRAMAAAAA !!!
wasted ...

k , busy chatting serious w frens . (:
Byebye . ;DD

i got bored.

2009-11-30T07:52:00.000-08:00

as it says in e title , I GOT BORED. (:

heyy .. im back .. for the holidays .. (:

2009-11-30T05:51:00.001-08:00

EAST COAST 6e ’09 CLASS GATHERING (:

Drama Mama

Valerie Leaving The Bus .. D;

And Walking ..

And Walking .. Haha .. XD

I Was Tired ....

Can Die You Know ?!?!

Candid Shot . She Didn't Know I Took It Till I Laughed And Showed Her . Blurr Sotong Rite ? NO OFFENCE ANNMAY . (:

She Left Me All Alooooone ..!

HAHA .. Some pics aye ..
Yea .. So today a few of my x-classmates and i met up at east coast ..
First ting in e morn got a rude wake up call , but woke up before annmay cld sms me .. then went 2 get ready 2 go out to meet x-classmates at east coast ..
i took 9 to meet annmay at Bedok Inter , then took 197 to go east coast .. got off arnd katong mall to find cheaper drinks to buy b4 heading to east coast .. n ended up TAKING A CAB to Carls' Jr. at in east coast .. then met up w isabel n andrew .. gerald came .. but the others were taking their own sweet time to come , so we went to KFC . then e first bunch came .. aft we ate , we headed to rent a bike .. rent 1 hour , free 1 hour ! 7 lollar only ! LOL .
we went to the skate park .. andrew went in , but the rest were asking him to fly . HAHA . BUT , we got bored and raced all the way back to macs ! I WIIIIIIN !! AHAH . then went INSIDE macs .. waited 4 val to come , but isabel went back 2 find her wallet .. aft val came we went out to e bus stop , got on 197 agn n went back to Bedok inter n took 9 w annmay and val .. took some pics on the way back ..
TIRING , BUT FUN ! ;D

isabel , hope u find ur wallet sooner or later .
n guys , u r still all HORNY . jus take it as a compliment . (:

that's all for now . Byebye .. (:

more photos !

2009-11-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

i WILL be back 2 blog PROPERLY . im currently in a rush .. so sorry 4 mis-ing still..
I WILL BE BACK N WITH MORE PICS AITE !

PHOTOGRAPHY !

2009-11-26T06:25:00.001-08:00

OHYEA !

2009-08-29T23:36:00.000-07:00

btw, here are some pics taken awhile ago ..
but they're just some of e best moments ..
doesnt it wanna make u cry ! haha ! :]

till next time !

scribbled at 2.44pm

love him . :]

Shoulder in pain .. -.-

2009-08-29T23:15:00.000-07:00

Heyy ! I am back bay bay ! woots !

Common test just finished .. been studying my frikkin head off .. so yea, no laptop .

But now it’s over, I can stick my face to the com again ! wahaha !

Mmhmm, common test finished, but end of year exams are coming .

So gonna start burying my head in those books again .

Either way, netball training resumed ..

But of all times , JOSHUA WOON AND GLENN LEE just had to play with the netball..

Play play play , den e ball hit my back ..

So now, my shoulder hurts ..

You monkeys !

But everything else is alright ..

Just that jingyee hasn’t been coming to school cos she’s sick ..

So im pretty much a loner at e moment .

I can deal with that .

At least I think I can ..

But we haven’t been talking much ,

So thr’s not much of a difference with or without rite ?

Nyeh ..

Whatever ..

Ohyea , my lil sis is ok .. but she’s currently screaming her head off ..

But yea, still cute and adorable .

Wth is tis ?! > =

I just wanted an equal sign .

Not a frikking squirrel ting !

Wow . I am soo bored .

Oooo .. that was random ..

Mmhmm , so tis is e end of today’s blog .

DEAL WITH IT .

I will TRY to update it .

NO GUARANTEES !

I SAID TRY !

Thhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee eeeeeeeennnnnnnnnnnnndddddddd .. !

Scribbled at 2.33pm

Love him . ♥

yeeeeeeeeeea ..

2009-08-14T07:04:00.001-07:00

yea .. sry 4 like, mia'ing AGAIN ..

i knew i shldnt hv made a blog ..

i'd update it like, once every 2 ? 3 months ?

so yea, here r some pictures to update u guys on wat's been going on .. :D

omigosh

2009-05-29T05:22:00.000-07:00

dammit , i m.i.a-ed agn ..
sry ppl .. been spending loads of time with friends and all tt stuff ..
i'll try keeping u guys updated n stuff ..

mhmm , so yea , life in sch has been great .. EXCEPT tt bloody ptc .

haish , now got frikkin tchrs spying on me for my parents .

damn UGH la !

so , pass few days have been hving netball training n stuff..

havent been training in a long time so , MY FRIKKIN BODY IS FRIKKIN ACHING !

ok , n aft training stay in sch for no reason .

i mean , not for no reason . to get AWAY frm my family .

leg injured don care .. better than suffering in tt hse .

life is so damn fcuking unfair .

scribbled @ 8.42pm

korean serials ?

2009-05-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

hmm ..
i thinking if girls watch korean serials just for the guys or 'the story' y'noe ..
tdy me n jessie went to jing yee's place ..
to watch our motivating serials ..
cool uhh ..

lol , got nth 2 say alr ..

sian ! haiz ..

tmr got sch en nvr do elearning ..

pro uh ..

die die die .. haha ..

scribbled @ 9.12pm

i am back baybeh !!!

2009-05-14T07:03:00.000-07:00

HEY PEOPLE !
Sorry for m.i.a-ing .
been studying for mid years know ..
yea , LAUGH IT UP !

well , apparently SOME people know when 2 study aites !

haha .. im laughing it up myself .

i m so gonna screw up my maths paper ..

so hardcore uhh ..

barely finished the second paper ..

but yea , i m not dead , my blog is not dead .

it is still well alive .

life's been good ..

but mhmm , still going through the motions ..

some ups , loads of downs .

it sucks .

and to everybody who has their mid years STILL , best of luck .

i will be updating my blog frm now on .

SO , IT IS STILL A-L-I-V-E .

scribbled @ 10.10pm

Stuff..

2009-04-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

jus a new update.
i got a new baby sister..
her name's Lee Ann..
she's only 3 days old, but yea, she's adorable..

BUT, the thing is, she's the screamo type..

im ok with that, i just hope that my bro cant get back his queen size bed back!

HA!

he still has his matress on e floor of my dad's room.

:DD

there'll be a netball match against Broadrick Sec in BV's ISH.

supporters are strongly encouraged! LOL

i'll see e BViewans tmr in sch!

haha..

Scribbled @ 5:54pm

Haiz..

2009-04-17T06:23:00.000-07:00

heyy..
i got nothing much to say at the moment..
i just got into the stone-ing mode..
except that crazy nutjob of a coach that principle hired..
and a jacked up finger..

my frikkin finger frikkin hurts cos of a particular badminton guy who wanna act hero throw ball so damn hard.

wtf sia.

hit my finger then now jammed up.

cannot straighten, cannot bend..

but the good news is, i cant write properly, so it's not my problem..

it's the teachers problems.. ;D

BUT, monday cannot play netball match u die..

i cant believe how cluelessly annoying some people are..

so pissed off at them den still wanna annoy us.

i just feel like whacking some sense into them..

and see how they react..

and the good more good news (i think)..

i got a baby sister..

and her name's Lee Ann..

but we're jus confused abt the arrangement of her name..

ok, watever..

haiz.. stone-ing..

scribbled @ 9:40pm

Wahh! Shiok!

2009-04-08T06:45:00.000-07:00

Omg!

Wahh!!

So Shiok!!!

Mdm Chew Nvr Come Sch!

Wahahaha!

NO ENG NO CME!

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!

BUT, Mdm Yani Come Lecture Lecture..

Wan Sleep Sia..

Den.. The Next Teacher Who Came In Was Like, 15mins Late..

So Since Got Chance Sleep, So Sleep Lorr..

Act So Innocent For Wat..

But At The End Of Tdy I Yawned Like, 25 Times!

I Cant Believe I Actually Counted..

UNBELIEVABLE.

Scribbled @ 10:02pm

OmiEFF

2009-04-03T06:39:00.000-07:00

OMIGOD!

i lost my phone for the whole frikkin aftnoon!

walao sia, can die w/o my phone sia..

shit man.. go tao payoh den say e bus end at ang mo kio.

go die uhh!

Ok, it's like tis.

i went to by 'e usual' bubbletea..

and i sat at e back of e bus, n den i dropped my frikkin fone.

n yet, i didn't realise.

STUPID RITE.

So i got off e bus n slack at e bus stop e while.

THHHHHENNNNNNNNN...

I REALISED I DROPPED MY FRIKKIN FONE.

i panic panic panic..

n look arnd e bus stop i scared like shit tt's gonna b flushed down e drain.

Soooo, i jus went home prepared to b murdered by my dad.

then let him dig me outta my grave agn to kill me n so on.resI tell him, he angry liao, i mean, of course!

it's only like, 1 n a half months old!

so aft tt go toa payoh ask e ppl thr.

den they say number 2 ends at new bridge (NOT WOODBRIDGE)

n 24 ends at ang mo kio.

so screwed.

den aft tt no time so go home eat lunch n go 4 e speech day.

wa sai, i worried like hell alr.

so come back frm sch..

SO LUCKY MY FAMILY HELP FIND SIA.

SO HENG AH..

BUT DEN HV 2 USE MY OLD FONE 4 2 WEEKS DEN CAN GET MY ERICSSON BACK..

OK LA. I DESERVE IT..

HUO GAI.

Scribbled @ 9.55pm

Haiz.

2009-04-02T06:53:00.000-07:00

Hey, it was so dam ridiculous tdy..
Jessie, Jing Yee and me jus finished tt frikkin netball training.
And we finished our homework..
Jing Yee's fren took her wallet, and we started running aft him 4 like, 5mins!
Which SO felt like 20 mins..

WHY DO BADMINTON BOYS RUN SO DAM FAST!!??? GOD!

Frikkin cldn't catch them..

So we jus pretended to be 'angry' n they actually gave it back..

Ridiculous..

WAHHHH!!!

HOLY ****!!

Tmr still hv 2 go 4 e dumbass sports carni..

Lame sia..

WTH! Den FORCED to go 4 dumbasssssssss speech day..

So tiring!!

Haiz..

Scribbled @ 10.17pm

Wat The Hell?!

2009-03-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

Wat the hell man!
Stupid coach sia.
I dunno how to play frikkin GA u suddenly jus dump me in as if i know how ur style of playing is.
Aft that still wanna scold me.
Hate u manxvxzcvxz.

i tink next year i quit netball n join some other CCA lorr.

Hate netball cos of U!

haiz..

ANYWAY, BV 'C' Division girls enjoyed that match.

i tink..

Ahhh!!!

i m falling head over heels with ******!!!

He's SO good looking!!

ooooooooooooi!

When he smiles,

it makes me melt from the inside out.

it feels like the warmth of the sun as it rises out of e horizon.

WAHHHH!!

Curse that poetry workshop!!

Make me sound like some crazy emo freak-show..

No offence to any emo people out there..

Finally, i bid my farewells.

*coff*RUBBISH*cough*

Scribbled @ 8:47pm

:DD

borrrrring

2009-03-28T04:23:00.000-07:00

this has got to be the boring-est day ever.
my dad's been playing mahjong rite now.
he's been frikkin playing ferr like, 7 straight hours.
my brother is out at gombak.
n i'm with the laptop..

wat a close relationship eh?

nvr thot i'd actually be toking to a laptop and laughing my head off when thr's an awkward moment of silence.

well, at least i'm not cooped up in my room ACTUALLY doing my homework..

no fun.. PLUS, if i did that, i'd still get a scolding which wld seriously piss me off.

i cant believe i'm at home instead of going out.

RI-DI-CUL-OUS!

i m so going out tmr.

i m NOT staying at home.

any takers on going out tmr?

Scribbled @ 7.32pm

28 march 09